August 3, 2014

Photogrpahed by David Slijper in 2007. c. David Slijper

July 13, 2014
ghosts

I stand at the counter waiting for my coffee.  The baristas know me by name now. They make my drink without me even asking.  Part of me feels embarrassed I’m so predictable.  Part of me feels relieved to be developing a habit.  When I think back to my sense of home and all we left in London, a lot of that was steeped in rituals.  The walk to the park, the familiar paths and once or twice a day standing at a counter waiting for my espresso.  

After a year in another country, I realise some of this is feeling like home but there’s still a strange isolation.
Is this outsider syndrome? Is this othering? 
And then I see him.

The old man with silver hair and beard.  

Such kind eyes. He must be at least 70.  He looks at me as though he knows me.  I think he wants to sit in the chair I had my eye on so I offer it to him instead.

'No no I'm fine.  It's just.. you look like my son,' he says.
Funny, he looks like my Dad.

He stares in to my eyes and I know, in that moment, he is not in his son’s life.
Just like I am not in my father’s.
Is his son still alive?
We don’t discuss it.

I am the ghost of someone else as he is a ghost to me.
Maybe we are idealised versions of the people we never really held.
I smile and leave and he watches me, wistfully.
I wonder if we’ll strike up a conversation one day.

June 21, 2014

The answer to the most frequently asked question. 

June 1, 2014

I know what it is about old malls - especially ‘dead’ 80’s ones that move me so much.  The memories. I think about all the moments that must have happened there. First kisses, birthday trips, excited Christmas dreams. Dates. Fights. Stress. Arguments. Apologies. Life.  All the dreams and memories just ghosts now.

May 30, 2014

The Hoyts Regent Cinema, Brisbane. Built in 1929. It’s where I first saw ‘Return of the Jedi’. Some of the happiest memories of my life were created there.  It had been listed as a protected building but was demolished and sold to make way for a 40 story office tower and carpark. 

May 4, 2014
Photo by James Reese 

Photo by James Reese 

April 19, 2014
Zero - by @MissHillash

April 5, 2014
Blonde Ambition

I had the strangest dream last night.  I had travelled back in time and I was hanging out with Marilyn Monroe.  She was so beautiful, she smelled so good and she had the most feisty independent spirit.  I loved her.  At the same time, myself and all my friends had to make sure we didn’t refer at all to the future and in particular her early passing.  At one point, something came up and she looked worried and asked what we were talking about.  I was torn between wanting to save her and not messing with the space time continuum.  At one point, Madonna came up and we showed her a picture of the True Blue album cover, thinking she would instantly see the connection and the style influence, but she didn’t!  She made a kind of ‘huh!’ sound as if she didn’t see any resemblance.  It’s hard to know what the message of the dream was, apart from reminding me that she was a one of a kind.  

April 2, 2014
My take on the ‘new’ Michael Jackson album news : If you found a pencil sketch by Monet, that he himself had discarded and decided not to finish - then got a team of painters to ‘finish’ it after his death, would it still be a Monet? Of course not.

March 22, 2014
A Conversation with Rick Nowels in 3 Parts